♥ No words can express the secret agony of my soul ♥

It's has been so long Liao...!!! Lol!!

2011-12-05T17:03:00.000-08:00

Wah, now then I realise that I so long never post blog Liao... Lol... Well I quitted my job and now focusing on marriage preparation... Yes, I'm getting married next year feb... 12.02.12, nice date huh... So there am I busying with my marriage things lor... Went to marriage preparation workshop, bliblical marriage course, photo shooting, food tasting and etc... It's tiring but enjoyable Luhs...thank God for His grace that He blessed me with a guy who really cares and dotes on me... He may not be the most wonderful guy but he is the most beautiful present that God won't ever blessed me... Thank God !!!

话语

2011-07-14T09:30:00.001-07:00

有时候会想。

我究竟喜欢你什么。

我究竟在等你什么？

也许得不到的才真的是最好的。

又或者，我只是没有遇见，比你更好的。

你不知道某些时刻，我有多么难过。

你不知道，没有回应的等待，真的让人很累。

你不知道，我是鼓起了多大的勇气，才敢念念不忘。[

一次次反复。

哭累了，沉默了。

想放弃了，冷淡了。

可是时间一过，却又还是想念了。

放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不开。

身边的人都会心疼。

周围的人都会劝解。

可是为什么，我向左走，向右走，还是走不出爱你的圆。

告诉自己

让自己离开你

告诉自己

这是最后一次哭泣

很多事情，都是有界限的

很多时候，再坚强的人都是会累的。

我不是真的傻瓜，只是曾经为你心甘情愿。

很偶尔的

你会找我，联系我。

你的突然出现，还是会挑起我心里的弦。

只是，我也学会对你伪装了，不冷不热，不咸不淡。

然后听你轻轻地说，你变了。

我不知道，是该笑还是该哭。

也没有意义了，不是吗。　　只是很突然的

看到一个相似的身影

听到一个相似的声音

总会身不由己，总会陷入回忆

不过，慢慢的，我也学着放下了

不是我变了，是我真的无能为力了、我认输了。

我折腾不动了。

只是突然地

听见那些歌

突然想起你。

你会在哪里？

过得快乐或委屈？

每当听到这样的歌词，总是不由自主地想起我们。

只是，我知道，我们的爱再也回不到从前了。

离开了，舍不得也要说再见…

Awake (:

2011-05-18T17:18:00.000-07:00

All thanks to My dearest meimei ,Peiyu for telling me so much things of that JERK... I've seen through what kind of person he is le... And I'm thankful that I didn't go in too deep for that fellow... Haha... Anyway I was contented for this ending and now I've learnt to treasure my boy more le... Thank you him for always staying by my side... He didn't scold me for not being faithful cos' of that jerk... But instead, he shown me through love that he is the one for you... I guess that's what Love is all about bah... Through him, I feel bliss and happiness... Not forgetting God's love also... (: hmm... Was on my way to work now le... A good start of a day, hope everything's fine... Got lotsa' things for me to do today... I will jiayous de... Went massage with mummy and Peiyu ytd... Quite relaxing... And one stupid things is I cried ytd for that song... Lol... Damn stupid lor... But nvm la... 哭过了，痛过了，就是该对过去说再见的时后了... Hao ba, end here le la .. Cos I reach interchange le... (:

I'm missing him...

2011-05-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

hais... i really miss him alot... every morning when I wake up, i really can stay firm and forget his good... but when it's at night, my heart miss him more and more... i'm still waiting... I know what kind of person He is... It's a no start relationship... really miss him alot... but I dont want to see him... Cos' everything hurts... :(

boy, do you know I am still hanging on so much ? I know it's impossible but hope for a change... :( I just want you hold you so dearly...

My mighty God

2011-04-10T06:30:00.000-07:00

Disaster, pain, diffcult times , and problems brings people more nearer to God. Everytime when you feel that you grew deeper in Christainity, another obstacles came. It's part of God's moulding you and teaching you to grew more deeper with Him. There is no way to run and avoid the problems/ obstacles. God want to hear from you.

It's alright to tell God all about yourself even for the dark thoughts in your heart. He is not afraid of all the dark thoughts, He can handles all that.God will not scold or condemn you because of the dark thoughts in your heart but instead He let you to rest. A good example will be Elijah. Elijah reveal all his dark thoughts to God. And God allow him to rest and deal with him in a very gentle way. ( NIV 1 kings 19). God wants to drew u deeper to Him. The method of growing deeper with Him

may not be beautiful and sometimes bad or painful, but this is the way God saves you and let you grew deeper to Him.Reveal yourself to Him and He will refresh you. In any situation, Submit yourself to God,He will make things end in a more beautiful way. He will heal you and calm your heart.

God hold us very tightly when we feel like giving up be it is relationship or life. But most of time, we don't feel like talking to Him. But sin first. Most importantly, we need to talk to God about everything. God will handles all your problems, He is always by your side and following you. God want you to tell Him all your injustice and sometimes what we really need is the soft voice of comfort to comfort ourselves.

Our God is a great God. <3

This week...

2011-03-19T17:40:00.000-07:00

Hmm... This week was quite a tiring week... Be it is physically or mentally... Watch big mommas with WZ on th Monday and got back home quite late... Lol... Didn't get to bed early due to some reason and realize that I am hungry whn i got home... Didn't manage to eat as I am too lazy and tired... Anyway was having a fun time for the outing as he is cute luhs.. Making comments that makes me laugh... (: had a small tiff with babyloves but everything was ok luhs... Th rest of the week is tiring as work is stressed up, Wednesday is the 10mths anniversary for me and my boy... Babyloves surprised me by bringing me out for dinner whereas he Nv go PFS... Stayed over at his place and went to work in the next morning luhs... Someone actually acc. Me to bugis on Thursday just to buy KOI... So nice right ?! Thank you so much yet... Although I feel bad that I let Th person wait Sooo long.. Hahas no choice lohs... I work woodlands lehs... Lol... Ok luhs... Shall stop here... Lastly , thanks the ppl whom make me laugh and smile on the week... I love you guys... <3

I'm sick... :(

2011-03-06T16:01:00.000-08:00

Shall skip work today as I am not feeling well... Fever and tummy ache... Painpain huhs... Making me so uncomfortable... :( Hais... Called up mummy just now to tell her , my tummy pain... She ask me go ah ma hse find medicine... Th pain come and go lehs... How to eat... Babyloves rang me up also... He is going to work le... And xuebin is coming over to acc. Me go see doctor later... So nice of her... <3 kinda hungry now lehs... Just hope that he is there to be with me now but I know is impossible... Babyloves got to work yea... Hao le, I g

Happy 9th month anniversary

2011-02-15T16:29:00.000-08:00

Today is Alr Th 9th month of our relationship le... Nth special and babyloves is not with me because he is having his reservist... But is ok la.. I am contented enOugh to know that his love Is always with me and his everything is for me... Ytd babyloves book out just to send me back home... So nice of him yea... Brought me to a hair cut on my bangs... Th aunty cut till Abit short huh... Strange strange de... Lol... :( but nvm la .. Will grow back de... Hahas ... Now I'm on my way to work le... Bus was crowded... Hope everything is Gd and Goes smoothly today... Everyone jiayous bahs... ! Wearing our couple watch for Th first day... Not used to wearing watch huh... But nvm, must learn... Lastly I wanna say... Baby I love you <3

What's going on ?

2011-02-10T15:45:00.000-08:00

Hais... Have been quarrel with babyloves this few days... Don't know why we keep quarrel... I don't like Th attitude of he(sometimes) . I find it very stressing because of he always corrects me... it makes me feel that I am not up to his standard... Last tome
He also not like that de... But now why? Hais... Maybe tgt long le bahs... Keep finding fault at each other... Sometimes I'm really speechless towards everything that happens between us... I really tired... But Th love is there to hang on... To hold us tgt...hais... Stop here le bahs ... :(

Life

2011-01-23T06:32:00.000-08:00

Hmm... Currently slacking at hse downstairs with Jie, Calvin, kopi, ah kiat and Ricky... Quite a Gd day for me luhs... Went church in Th morning... Baby have a bad time waking me up... Very tired luhs... Saw gurmit Singh at grace assembly today... Aft that , baby bring me today woodlands for bak gu teh... Nice... ;)) aft that went for to sing k with Shirlie and baby... Lol... Hao la... Stop here le... Nights

Giving up...

2011-01-20T15:08:00.000-08:00

I really very tired le... Just feel like I have the urge to give up everything and just end my life... Everything doesn't goes right for me... What's going on with me? I need someone to at least give me so hope... At least a hope for me to carry on , a hope for me to hold on... I really don't know what to do le... Hais... 我已经累得不想再拉扯！

Why?

2011-01-20T08:31:00.001-08:00

Why can't I worry for you? I am your Gf lehs... Everything I give in and listen to you.., when is your turn to hear me say? I also need to be dotes and love... Why cant we as sweet as others ? Everything goes on to your way... This and that... No negative post on fb? No this no that... Is your image important or our relationship my heart important ? So what ppl knows that we quarrel ? Who cares and who are they to interfere ... You always say me violent, rude or even uncivilise... But this is me what... I am changing all this because of you... Have you Tot of me? Getting worried about you and end up having a lecture from you... What's going on? Pls... Someone teach me what to do... I wanna cannot hang on Liao... My life is not doing very Gd for me... I really wanna give up everything and reunite with the Lord soon... Will you catch me when I fall? Will you be there when I need someone? Or your lil comfort, or your scolding again.... In your dictionary, you are always right... But Th best things is you holds a important place in my heart... And I love you...

Sorry...

2011-01-01T16:07:00.001-08:00

It really hurts me when you treat me like this... :( I know I was in wrong,but I alr apologize le... You still don't want ? 还是死心了？我的心，痛的快疯了. Why why why ? This Is the first big fight that we have... 我知道我错了。原谅我？pls... Tell me what should I do , I really want crazy Liao , 快不行了。are we going to last? Are you giving up on me ? Hais !!!

Someone reminds me...

2010-12-20T16:02:00.000-08:00

Lols... Someone reminds me that I hadn't update my blog for a long time... Hees... Actually I Nv put much hearts into blogging because I simply don't have the habit of writing... XD anyway as Christmas is coming , I want to give thanks to ppl who appears in my life, be it is ppl I love or ppl that hurts me or so ever... For ppl whom loves me, I appreciate and thankful that I have you guys with me for my life... And for ppl that I don't have gd rapport with , I also want to thanks you guys for being my life and let me learn some lessons in you... Thank you for letting me to see who are the ppl who are true to me... It's a thanksgiving seasons... I'm contented with the things I have, ppl ard me and all the wonderful things that happened... For this year , I would be thankful that I have a stable job ( at least I can buy something I like and financially blessed ) and a gd bf whom is always guiding me all the times... Thankful that I've see some ppl true colours and know that the world still got ppl loves me and dotes me without them...
So what's your thanksgiving post ? Post it on your blog today yea... XD

Your love is more than I ever asked for...

2010-12-02T13:39:00.000-08:00

This post is for my Babyloves Johnson :

Bibi,
Thank you for always being there for me... 你的出现让我觉得世上还有真爱。 I can feel your love coming in every moments... It makes me feel so loved by you... I know that I am wilful, unreasonable at times but you didn't give up on me and teaches me lots of patience... I really thank God for letting me to meet you... Being able to be with you is my greatest happiness of my life... You came to drive me home after work , when it's raining despite you and tired... You took care of me when I was sick... Coax me to bed when I can't slp... Yes indeed sometimes we do quarrel, but I suppose that these are the spices of our life bahx? I always feel comfort when I was with you... Rmb the first time you hold my hand in the cinema ? Rmb the times you ask me for relationship at labrador park ? Rmb our first date ? Or rmb the first time we met ? I don't seems to like you when I first see you... I'm more interested in your job then... After so much met up, I feel that the feeling you gave to me is different... 我发现我以偷偷爱上你了,哈哈你不知道吧? I loved the times we shares alot to each other... The foundation Is there and of course our Great Lord, the author of our relationship... I know sometimes I had sobbed and make him angry, but I know that He has turned His anger in comfort and comfort me... He never give us up when we are being not obedient... Instead He pour out more loves and patience for us so that we can loves each other just like how He loves us... We will walk our life tgt with Him and always He is there to support our relationship... Lastly I wanna let you know that : Iloveyou... You are all that I ever wanted... Babyloves <3

Relationships

Lord, I surrender my relationship unto Your hand and let You be in charge of them. If any of my relationships are not of You, remove them from my life, for it will lead me to go astray. Lord, I pray that Your spirit of love and peace will lead in between my relationship with Johnson Guide both of us whenever we face problems. Help us to identify the hand of our enemy when it comes to lie and destroy. You are worthy of my praises for you are the king of king, lord of lord and the creator of all the earth. Amen !

Hmmm...?!

2010-11-11T16:10:00.001-08:00

Decided to have a post this friday morning while going to work... Today janet and don is on leave... Laopo is on half day leave... Ytd had my half leave leave and did nothing much... Went iciban bought cheese cake for ah Mei Jie luhs...she is happy huh... Alexis is having a bad day at ah Yi hse... Throwing her temper... Lols... But once she is home, she is ok Liao... Her comfort zone huh... And got one Indian aunty farted in the public so loudly lor... Smelly also... So manners and uncivilise... Tsk... Went to bed at 1am last night , now stone stone lor... Watch tv and chat with Jie lor... Had my chicken essence this morning... Haiya I like nothing to post Liao... Anyway hope that I have a gd day ahead... Jiayous everyone!!!

darling boy, you know how much I miss you... Very bad Hor you... Go to slp without telling me... Hmphs... Anyway thanks for loving me... I feel so blessed to have you by my side... Still rmb when we first met, we took no notice to each other... Many sparks came along and God put us tgt... Many obstacles we have overcome and I believe that even there is more and more obstacles that came by, we will overcome it de... Iloveyou darling...

Heavenly Father, I know You can restore my relationships as You are the God of restoration. Do not let my heart be hardened but shower it with Your unfailing love and kindness. Help me to be compassionate, tenderhearted, loving and courteous. Take away my heart of revenge and do not let me return evil for evil, but give them back with blessings. Let me forgive those who hurt me, just like how You have forgiven me.Amen.

Last weekend...

2010-11-07T16:09:00.001-08:00

Yea... Last weekend is a gd holiday for me... Had my family accompanied and as well as Babyloves... Stayed at home on Thursday night tgt with dad , Kor and huijun as mummy and sis went for wedding dinner... Babyloves have no time for me so I slept early luhs... Waken up by don't know what in the morning and wait for sis to be awake then go out... Mum and dad went sim lim tower and they got mr a big bag of chrysthemum tea... Lols... Love that... Met up Connie and Calvin at jp with sis and bought present for Yi Jie's full month this coming 21th... Took bus home whereas baby come find me... As it is my neighbour's birthday... Had our dinner there and went market with Babyloves , mum, sis and cal... Baby bring me back to his home after that...

Woke up by jaylan early in the morning... He is not feeling very well as he had an ulcer in his mouth so he keep crying... Poor lil boy... Baby's dad bought us breakfast... And then we went off to send tutu's ingredient... Th weather is hot huh... Had my lunch at Cck 302 coffeeshop... Nice nice de char shao rice... Headed home after sending the things... Slept for a while and wake up for dinner prepared by Baby's mum... Went Rivervale mall's daiso and Ntuc to get some things and foods... Went back Baby's home to see show then off to bed....

Woke up early as we need to attend service at grace assembly of god... Ate breakfast and move on to grace... Testimony given by Suzann and Kelvin soh... He look more handsome in person huh... Lols... Testimony of god's salvation.., praise the
Lord huh... After svc , we went east coast and expo Robinson's sale... Tiring day huh... Went back Baby's home and he cook maggi for me... Took a rest and went to ah Yi hse for dinner and visit Alexis.. That lil baby girl is so emotional and cute... :) went back home and followed sis and cal to market eat again... Lol... Went bed as Tmr got to work...

Hais... What going on ?

2010-10-31T17:10:00.000-07:00

Hais... Life seems tougher le... Problems with family, work and sometimes darling boy... What's going on huh? Family, everyone is giving me faces except Jie... At home , talk also cannot... Kanna scolded by Kor.. Got work the next day very big mehx ? Mummy is sick le... Didn't even bother to talk to me also... Jie can do that why can't I ? Ended up I am Th one getting all The attitude... WTF... Father jiu don't say le... We Nv speak for at least 2-3 weeks le ba... I don't care la huh... Work, ppl are seems harder to work with le... Even sistership are strained... 有些人只能做好姐妹，不能做同事... As for darling boy, we hardly meet up on weekdays luhs... Probably like that we quarrel less ba... Althought we quarrel but we still love each other and we still hang on there for each other... 我不会再奢求什么了，有他在身边就够了。

Long long time passed...

2010-10-08T18:30:00.000-07:00

Have been sad for this week... Heard from alot of story of ppl leaving Th world ... First is Mrs lee kuan yew , second is a 7th baby named Bernard leaves due heart attack... Lastly is my friend's bro leaves due to sudden heart attack... They are gd angel but why they leave ? Maybe will go down find my friend later lor... I think that everyone shld have Th right to live to their life to Th fullest... It's god's calling ba... From these story, I learn to treasure th ppl
Around me more and play a part in their life... I dont want to regret in my life... 人类真的很脆弱，说走就走。然后就把家人留在世上，没有人会希望事情发生在自己身上。So ppl out there, pls kindly treasure Th ppl around you and take cares of them while you still can... Don't regret... Lastly I wanna say is condolence to their family... God bless you...

Happy

2010-09-24T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hahas have been very happy lately... Baby bought my a iPhone 4... So de happy... Attended godmA's ROM ytd... Had a great fun then after that meet baby at compass point and got me an iPhone 4... Very thanks to him.. Busying downloading games And save contact... Haha... I wanna go rest le... Bye...

我们的生活照！

2010-07-18T05:49:00.000-07:00

On Baby's Car... ;p

情有独钟！

Unshakable bond, Unfailing Love

Through it all

2010-07-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

A nice song that i learn today at Grace Assembly, had a nice service...interesting on marriage... it has all planned from God for me and baby to listen to... reminding us to build up a strong foundation before going into a marriage..

''Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand.The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash." (Matthew 7:24-27)

God blessed every marriage with a everlasting love... ;p
Love Him, as he love us first...

Just a little thought of mine...

2010-07-10T02:09:00.001-07:00

Hmm... everyone ard me seems to get married and have their own kids... and i know this is what i have to went through... it's so wonderful to have some kids of your own but everything got to plan... we cant do things on impluse lor... Baby wants to plan with me of our future... hmmm, i love kids damn lots lor... how wish to have my own kids but seriously speaking not now lor... hais... see how ba...

Philosophy of love...

2010-07-05T04:16:00.000-07:00

Some people believe that there is no such thing as "true love" they believe that love is nothing but an illusion designed by social expectations. These people believe that love ultimately turns into pain and despair. This idea in some ways is true. Love is not eternal it will come to an end one way or another, but the aspect that separates true love from illusion, is the way love ends. "True Love" is much too powerful to be destroyed by Human imperfection; it may only be destroyed by a force equal to the power of love.Love is the most mystifying and complex emotion that we have. What's the difference between Platonic love, and Sexual love? Which love is real? What does it really mean when someone says those three words "I love you?" It's a common misconception that one is separate from the other, when in fact these two concepts go hand in hand. It's not possible for someone to truly be in love with another if they only have a sexually attraction. The only thing a sexual attraction is is a raw physical lust or desire, for a pleasure, that is not attainable by the limited expectations of a platonic love, therefore rendering this notion unworthy of the title, love.

Love is something beautiful... It shouldnt be something that may hurt you or your closes one... Live up your life to the fullest and discover the beauty of your love...

Wonderful Sunday...

2010-07-04T07:38:00.000-07:00

wakey at ard 7 plus and went church service with baby... holy communion today... enjoyable and fun sermon by Pastor Derek... Today's sermon is about MRT... not th one we always sits la... more info is available at online sermons on www.coos.org.sg... :) went isetan scotts to visit my old colleagues... missed them so muchx huh... aft that we proceeded to bugis... bought myself a bag, lingeries and shirts for baby... went to east coast park to have a walk at th beach... aft that we went to parkway parade to shop again... Baby bought me 4 nail polish... ;p and got some greeting cards as Baby wants to write something to his friends inside... wcame baq to his hse and have a short rest before going baq to have dinner with mummy... eat till i wanna vomit liao... hahas...tired but happy day... ok la... i shall stop here liao... cos' ging to acc. my baby le... nitex everyone..

God's love...

2010-07-03T07:32:00.000-07:00

God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love. We, though, are going to love—love and be loved. First we were loved, now we love. He loved us first.As we choose to live in the light of love, it will connect with others who choose to love and the light is expanded showing us more and more. As our life of love is shared with others, they will become enlightened to the love of Jesus and add to the brightness that opens the door to reveal even more freedom in Jesus Christ until the darkness in our life is limited and then all together eliminated! Imagine love revealing those things which you have been desperately searching for in the dark! It will happen because we have honored God in His Commandment – to love one another by taking advantage of the prospering opportunity provided by Jesus Christ to join in a productive relationship with the Trinity through loving others.God's love is selfless and unconditional. Being in the house of God is such a beautiful thing that ever happen to me. He brought me someonewho loves me so much and giving me more than what i asked for...

Happy Moments, Praise God
Difficult Moments, Seek God
Quiet Moments, Worship God
Painful Moments, Trust God
Every Moments, Thank God

Love

2010-06-26T01:38:00.000-07:00

When people fall in love, there is an overwhelming rush of emotion that permeates their life. Everything is about loving the other person as they walk the steps to the day that they become married. With great anticipation standing before friends and love ones, they promise a lifetime of love and commit their entire being to one another. The honeymoon year passes with it a challenge or two and then life begins. The perfect person proves to be an ordinary man or woman with innate flaws produced by sin conception. Little things irritate the other and sometimes not so little things threaten to pull apart the two people who have promised to be one in love.Lukewarm love is not the longing of a young person’s heart seeking to connect with a life partner. Love should add something to life or who needs it. It would not be a high priority if it offered nothing. Love equates to hope. Love implies a connection and the end of isolation. However, anyone who has lived in a passive love affair will certainly tell you it was not what they expected at all. The overpowering emotion connected to love that draws people to one another must make the transformation to a bond that is stronger than any situation and circumstance that will ever come against it. Lust and passion have been confused in the perverted world that reeks of rotten sin and immortality.

Baby,
when i found you, i found love... thank you for being there for me all the while... sometimes i might be wilful and unreasonable, but you are th one who gaves me so much patience... for me to go and learn and to feel your love... when i am sick, you were there, when its raining heavily outside, you came to fetch me to work... you always appeared when i needed you th most... although sometimes i seems not to care but end up i will listen to you de... forgive your lil girl ok ? love you lots lots la... just wanna tell you that i never regret be with you cos' i am pampered by your love... you teaches me lots of thing and make me learn everything lil things by heart and experience... It's part of moulding right ? You are my onlyone... I am not going to love other man this lifetime... Without you, life is meaningless... I turn from your lil devil to your lil angel... isn't that beautiful ? hahas... Baby iloveyou... :)

sadded...

2010-06-03T08:14:00.001-07:00

hais... has been vry moody this few daes... cos baby is going overseas tmr le... vry sadnor...i vry de dont want him go nor... it's a test that God has given us... i cried ytd nor... feel so xinku in my heart... made baby heartpain... but i know i cant be selfish... he is there to share Christ, to bring glory to God, to experience what God has in store for him over there... so this 3 days i got to be strong, got to be guai and take good care of myself and wait for him to come back and share with him his experience... God will be with him, my love too... i vry de sad la... dont want to say le la... i now dont even dare to talk to him, i afraid that i will cry sia... i dont want to worry bout me... to heartpain me... ;( hais...

baby,

i will wait for you tocome back de... sorry that i crycry le... sorry for my wilful... my heart vry pain... no matter where you are, just rmb that there is a girl loving for you forever... and that's me... i will never give you up... nothing will stop me from loving you... nothing can separates us apart till Father lord bring us back... baby iloveyou... <3 you also must guai guai wor... muackx...

yourlilgirl...

love to be loved...

2010-05-31T06:36:00.000-07:00

this post is for you...

baby,
Thanks for being here for me when i needed you the most... although we have just started but i know God wont let our story ends... i know sometimes that i am wilful and noty... just give me more patience ok ? i have quitted smoking for you le... what's next is in store for you ? my everlasting love... ;p i will learn to be your lil. girl... no more noty and will guai guai de... i know what ppl say bout us... i am facing lots here.. because of our age gaps... i only nv say out nia... i just dont want you to worry... sorry baby that i broke your promise... i donthave the courage to say it out... i dont want you to feel hurt or interior.. i dont care what ppl say... i just wanna be with you... sorry baby... we gonna' prove to them we will last right ?thanks God for blessing me with you.. i love you baby... dont brk my heart ok ? i am so de fragile to you, you know that ? missing you every now and then... loving and treasuring every lil mins that is with you... ai ni wor... ;p
ok la... i wanna go pei you liao... muackx...

pingping loves you...

tired !

2010-05-07T21:29:00.000-07:00

this few days very tired wor... keeping ton night... hahas... no energy le la... l8r going to orhx orhx liao... hmmm.... met up a friend last few days, very surprise that he like me sia... lols... kindA stupid sia... hais... he did something touching wor... he spend his night with me, telling me how much he loves me, everything from his heart... and 1 sub shui thing... hahahs... he pour out all his troubles all this to me... i tot he was a brave and strong man... inner side, he was so fragile... hais... all i can give is comfort... he send me home aft that... when i thank him for sending me baq, he said to me that : '' dont thanks me, but thanks to my love to you... ''... so touching right ? lols... ytd when play pool with zhida, jason, gary, serene, sanpeng, bingkoon, ansley, yong chn, shirlie, alson, weijie and jiayi at timah... till 3 am plus nor... now at work but going baq at 1pm... slp slp slp... my slp god is looking for me le... hahas... sians la... life damn boring nor... end here le ba... see ya...

boy, i dontknow your love is true not... so i dont dare to accept, i have been finding all th truth so that i can trust you completely, but you seems to hiding it... i cant feel th secure there larhx... your words touched me... i dont dare to accept you is becos i afraid th hurts... boy, i am sorry to let you wait..

珍惜身边的人。

2010-05-05T02:49:00.000-07:00

hmmm... just wondering, why is life so fragile ? i came across a incident today by my colleagues... a lady who was planning to give a surprise to her mum for mother's day, cancelled her catering orders this afternoon... as her mum had passed away this afternoon... she was planning to have a surprise buffet party at the RC zone for her mum as her visit that RC occasionly... This incident made me and my colleagues cry... we weere feeling heartpain for that family... this incident really wakes me up and reminds me of my grandma... which i didnt have a chance to call her anymore ever since she passed on infront of me... it was so saddening... so guys , do treasure the ppl ard you... and those who are blessed to have their loved ones by their side, give them more time and enjoy your accompanied... dont let it be a regret...

waiting for time to finish work... kinda tired yea... but at least one day of working life passed... meeting jason they all l8r... go 妈祖宫see see walk walk nor... hais... life so boring huh... all i need is a gd rest and someone to hug and hold, with all my heart and soul... someone to pamper and loves... single isnt that much good right ? maybe ba... mr right will come eventually ? wait ba... no want will ever like a girl which so many past... even like is only awhile or even wanna play your feeling...

boy, is the security that you dont give me anymore le ma ? i gave you up, searching for a good soul to heal my broken heart ? but why ? i just cant bear to leave th world without you... maybe time will bring me away from you... do you mean by what you say ? or just playing with it ? i only hope that time will help me to whisper '' i love you '' to your ears...

long long time le..

2010-04-23T01:48:00.000-07:00

so long since i post my blog huh...
well... everything started baq to being myself le... yupps, i broke off with him le... hais... alot of quarrel, we met up a few times after broke off but we still didnt managed to patch baq... maybe th love is no longer there ba... has been slacking ard at teckwhye recently, alot of things happened... goods and bads... post blog other day ba... going chalet with nicholas l8r... :)

Boy, i know i have no rights to say anythings bout us ... but i just wanna say, even though i decided to give you up, but i just want to rmb you in my heart... i love you...

omg!

2010-02-27T11:43:00.001-08:00

my omg... my blog is webbing with spider wed le la... so long nv update le... :( have been busying with work lehx... and acc. my baby... nw at kenneth hse lehx... having a headache since morning... fcuking irritating... haishx... picking things up at work everything, so far so good... went isetan aft work today... nv get to see my ahlian... so sad... met baby aft that to makan be4 going his house to slp... went to tampines with baby... bought myself some clothes and for my godson... so cute th shirt... met up dave be4 coming to kenneth hse.. they are playing monoploy now... i just wake up from a short nap... gtg... tc guys...

work...

2010-02-09T07:01:00.000-08:00

long time since i update my blog le... busy working lehx... finally i found myself a job ! purchasing assistant... (: update you guys l8r... i going to pei my baby le... (:

love cannot be forced, let nature takes its course...

2010-01-21T19:39:00.000-08:00

what i do is wrong de ma? i am no longer his girl le... why must he come control me so much..? i dont see th point nor... all i want is only peace... i dont want quarrel, fighting all this... what's going on with you guys? if anything happens, i will stop de... if want beat ppl, beat me first... make sure i die le then you all continue your fighting... if really that thing happens, i want you all to step over my dead body to settle you'll things... fair enough ? all started witrh me de... i shall take th blame... be it you all like it or not... i dont care... want settle ? settle once and for all... i never wanted to bluff who ever it is... this things has to come to a stop... dont need what 3 on 1 la... time will prove everything...

baby, i just need your trust and time... go ahead and believe what you think you are in my heart... your words is just f''king hurtful... i had nothing to say anymore le... trust? love? misunderstanding? text me when you know th answer ba... :(

first time prawning...

2010-01-17T01:56:00.000-08:00

went prawning at farmway 1 with serene they all ytd... so happy... i prawn till a lobster... lols... th trip is quite enjoyable nor... feel so tired aft that then proceed to ahhim hse to play mahjong... slept at ard 4am plus then we went bedok interchange to have my fav's mutton soup... (; followed they all to buy fishfish... ngian bought me a pink fish... hahas... so cute... and he is adopting my lobster... lols... (: just had my shower and now posting my blog at kenneth house... weiwei and chongming seeing show wor... waiting for serene to come then go mum mum wor... 2days nv go home le...hais... long story... post blog next time ba...

hey... stop being a AA la hor... i dont belong to you... so just f**k off from my life... leave me alone... dont scold me scold me... get lost...!

B.I.T.C.H

2010-01-14T18:56:00.000-08:00

who are you to interfere my life man? you think what? eh pls la... i dont need you to interfere my life... is my prob, my life... i feel like it... dont behind me say so many things la... over th years, you ka me how many jiao wei... you ownself know la... i keep quiet nv say only... what i do does affect you huh? you love me so much huh... hahas... like to care for my things... oh...i feel so 'honoured' yea... come on la... f**k off and dont come into my life... I DONT NEED YOU BITCH ! i nv say out doesnt mean i dontknow... i had been tolerating le... this is th limits... what comes ard go ard... how you treat ppl, one day you will get it... cant wait to see me being hurt huh? hahas... too bad... i cant grant you th wish.... becox i gonna be very happy and enjoy my life out there... dont kp when everyone condemn and outcast you huh... i am sure that you know what you are doing... dont be naive la... you think you very perfect mehx? always right ? come on la... think mature abit lehx... go ahead & daydream that your prince will be with you la... hahas... what's th point... lols... f**k off la eh bitch... i dont need you to judge me... i am only giving someone face... no worries i wont go touch till you... i will get someone to do it... i wont dirty my hand for you... go ahead and be a spoiler ba... i an waiting to see show... a clown that is doing a stupid stunt... a girl who is making a clown out of herself hahas... (sorry if your bf see this... i am just venting it out yea... you know me de... hahas... )

tired!

2010-01-10T20:22:00.000-08:00

went to malaysia ytd... spend RM 200 over nothing... ate alot of things... (: very tired huh... took 950 at woddlands and meet up they all... go in nor.. go city square walk walk, see movie.. (treasure hunter... not very nice... lols... 'aiai' brought himself a pair of shoes... 'xiaolaogong' buy bracelet, i buy hairband... saw a pair of shoes very nice but cannot buy... cos i have a lot of shoes le...): saw one shirt very nice but cannot buy... they find it too sexy...lols... anyway i am gonna buy them shirt... dont let them know... hahas... post blog nx time ba.. (:

what i believe in you is all lie...

2010-01-06T16:24:00.000-08:00

hey... had euu got enough of lying to me? no feelings towards her huh? wanting me baq huh? & now what have i found out... euu got a new girl... lolx... i was stupid enough to believe euu man... 1 yrs plus le... i still believe euu like a fool... nv again i will let myself believe euu so easily le... prove to me that euu worth my trust... i dont think it's gonna to be easy for euu huh... lolx... last long with ur girl huh... i will give euu my blessing...enjoy...!

happy new year !

2009-12-31T17:32:00.000-08:00

Hi all, i am baq to blogging again.. firstly let me wish euux guys a happy new year.. beginning of th year i hope euu guys will have a good start and doing good for th rest of th year... all th best for th upcoming future... (:
2009 has been a unforgettable year from me.. becox of him... (whom i shall not reveal to) there were times when we are happy and times we are sad... but everthing is over... me and him broke off on 20/12/09... a new start for me and him ba... hope he can find a ger that he truely love and treat her good... (: countdown was nothing special nor... slack at mummy's hse before coming to jimmy's hse to drink... my god! i was drunk... but lucky nv merlion... (: ytd was bigbro's wedding day... dinner was at jurong chervons.. th dishes ok ok only nor... i tink serene;s one nicer... hahas... i promised with some photo uploaded ok? now having a slight hangover... ok la... i shall end here... take care guys... (:

my 18th birthday..

2009-12-16T19:32:00.000-08:00

thanks for all th presents and birthday wishes by everyone of euu...
i wanna thanks... :

mummy, bingliang, baby, jiayi, yvonne, serene, tingjie, connie, eddie, joel, guowei(weiwei), john(papa), roy, jinhui, chanel, suiching, weijie, samuel, isabel, anna, terry, kit, kendrick, steven, shirlie, ahbee, julaiha, xingyu, huijun...

sorry if your name is mention here... i might missed out some...

I HATE MY DAD !

2009-12-12T23:10:00.001-08:00

sickening old man... had a big quarrel with last friday... crazy de... also run home nor. everything also du lan me... na bei... tink what... he ask if i got treat him as father ma? then i ask him baq la idiot... he got treat me as daughter ma... he is just making a clown out of himself nor... i hate him la... how many years le... still de same, never change... one day, i will run away from home once again because of him... he driving me crazy and to death... na bei... i cant take it anymore le... my mum is th middleman.. who can take it his irritating attitude... everything also kp... I HATE HIM LA...

its has been so long...

2009-12-09T13:16:00.000-08:00

baq to blogging again le.. i hadnt slept for th night yet.. today is serene's wedding day... posting blog at her papa house right now..yvonne lying on my leg now wor.. serene and shir slping on bed.. no place to sit wor... tiredd... ): i want BB's hug hug... i want orhx orhx le... cannot slp siia... tired lar.. BB i miss euu... sisters all here... siians.. :(
go0nna find one place to take a short nap.. post later on ba... if i got time.. hees...

11 months with baby....

2009-11-25T08:10:00.000-08:00

today is th 11 months with baby... never meet till him lehx... he working... so long le... things still de same... haishx... tmr then update ba... i tired le...

lifes...

2009-11-23T17:06:00.000-08:00

it has been sometime since i post my blog le... siians.. life continues... attend girlfriend's 21th birthday last weekend... enjoyed... :) its is fun and ahbee is so funny... played ard at bus... -_-" th chalet was located at aranda country club... is quite big la... but very exp... 3days 2nights cost $600 plus plus... it was raining that night... th rain come and go... yet we still manage to have some of th food cooked... see heng shuay nor... lols.. anyway i now go baq slp liao...tired... baobei is staying over at my house... :)

**wish ahma have a speedy recovery to go to genting with us... ;)

baby, tmr is th 11mth le... so fast wor... we dont meet everyday as you need to pei xian they all... we just need a talk ok baby? love you... :P

photos

2009-11-22T22:42:00.000-08:00

my trip to genting with family... :P

2009-11-19T19:44:00.000-08:00

16 nov...

wakey early in th morning at ard 5 plus... took feeder bus no. 920 to bpp to take a coach up to genting... met up ahyi they all... then coach is filled with laughter and fun because th coach only consists of our own ppl... aft we pass M'sia customs, our very first stop is yong peng.. had our breakfast there and proceeded up to genting highlands... aft 4-5 hrs of journey, we reached genting... we spend most of th time on coach sleeping.. we went to th bell counter at first world hotel to deposit our bags... then we procceeded to had our lunch at KFC.. :P we (kids) were told to meet them(adults) at ard 4pm to check in hotel... in th meantime we went to shop shop nor... first time dere, everything is so new to me... it was raining dere.. so it's cold... we went to th arcade located at genting hotel... played awhile... then went baq to gather with them... i shared one room with mummy... surprisingly,my room is joined with baobao's room with only 1 door... aft that we rest awhile and proceeded to genting hotel dere to have our dinner... dayi treat wor... :) had a sumptous dinner and went baq to arcade again as adults wanna go casino wor... baq to hotel ard 11 plus to have a bath and play cards... turn in ard 12plus before mummy comes back... i was alone in the room... :)

17 Nov
wakey up ard 6 plus to have breakfast buffet at first world cafe... th crowd is... OMG! terrible nor... th food is not nice also... th worse buffet i ever had... aft breakfast, we went baq to hotel to have a nap before we went to th theme park...played a few rides nor... early in th morning play roller coasters... scary siia... th flying coaster is damn fun nor... baq to hotel ard 3 plus to put our bearbear before we proceeded to th indoor park... th rides dere is so de boring.. .sit on it till wanna slp le.. then we went to th motion master (4D images, its fun... so real life.. hees... met them up at hotel ard 6pm to go for dinner.. ( treated by mummy as she won money...) th dinner is ok ok de nor... aft dinner we went to shop shop before mummy go casino... we waited for baobao and her friend as they wanna bath bath... me and steven jiu walk walk nor... aft meeting up them we went to th arcade... it's getting late and so we planned to go to th bakery to get ourselves some cakes.. which cost me RM 21 plus plus nor... then we went baq to first world to but BASKIN'ROBBIN ice cream for suppers... spend time at hotel playing cards and finish our supper... turn in at 12am.. :)

18 Nov
wakey up ard 8 plus to have my breakfast with mummy... baq to have a short nap at hotel alone as baobao they all were slping... woke up ard 10plus to pack my things as we are going back le... went to steven's room to look for im and then we go walk walk... bought something for baby and really hope he will ike it... mummy bought me a bag at RM79... :P i love you, mummy... met up ahyi they all at coach bay to have fried kway teow... then we took photos... before we went on coach.. my ear was hurting me when we went down th hill... stop at a shop whereby i bought some local stuffs for baby's mummy and ahma... reach bpp ard 7 plus and took cab home... i am tired...

(photos to be uploaded i promised... :P )

at jie hse

2009-11-12T21:14:00.000-08:00

hey guys... now posting at jie hse... nth to do lehx... so bring soup for jie nor.. mummy cook de... my leg still pain pain... at nitex i wanna go baby de tua... missed him now..

woot... its over...

2009-11-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

hey guys.. i am baq to post again le... this few day has been very busy with baby's tua de da ri zi... ;p i promised to get those pics uploaded ok ? baby got his baq stitches... 4 stitches man.. heartpain wor... his zai zai la... so noty... lols.. i will post it lar... tc...

i am baq to upload le... pics i promised...

alson's birthday

2009-10-29T19:58:00.000-07:00

today is alson birthday wor... tmr we are having his bbq birthday party... so tmr 7am jiu must wakey le... then afternoon got to bring chongbaobei to buy present for him... come baq ard evening to proceed to th bbq party... aft that still got tua wor... lols... tmr will be a long day yea... :)

6,7,8 of Nov will be 正华善灵宫善财童子千秋。。
so excited !!!

quote of the day

2009-10-29T01:43:00.000-07:00

this quote is i found it online.. i find it quite interesting... so put it down nor... posting blog now at ahhao hse... sians nor... feeling not well actually... quarrel with parents... hais... morning meet ahngai and jie go see and i saw yanguang... lols... nth muchx le nor.. post blog l8r ba... siians...

recently taken photos...

2009-10-27T20:45:00.001-07:00

towards euu, i am speechless...

2009-10-26T22:18:00.000-07:00

baby...
i am deeply hurt this time le... i dontknow what to say le... i am sadd, heartbroken... this time really make me cheng xim le... towards euu i had nth to say.. i... haishx... why everytime meet euu de tym must hurt till me? euu are th one whom say brk first de.. i made up my mind to give up euu le... then euu say euu dontwant brk... what euu treat me as? not happy brk, happy then tgt... pls la... i had enough le... really... i am tired le... euu are asking if i still got feel towards euu.. i am telling euu that it fades le... it's all becox of ur hurts... your rashly act made me wanna run away from euu... now i am afraid of meeting euu, becox i dontknow when it th next time euu hurt me, my hand and arms are red... damn painful... euu dont trust me at all, i dont want get innocent ppl involved, euu know not? what i can say is, ur love is a painful one... not even one of my exs has done so muchx painful to me... this burden is too big le... i really feel like giving up liao.. :(

missed baby..

2009-10-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

it has been sometime seen i saw baby le.. feeling sick thats why... that pig always sleep till afternoon de.. no eat breakfast how can nehx? haiishx... :( da ge today book out le.. hopefully can see him tmr or what ba... tmr papa is bring me to Toh Guan de tua... hopefully can learn something... :) sunday going expo with papa and mama... to dontknow what electrical exhibition nor... they want go then i follow nor... go car sit go.. why not? update nxt time ba... :)

hais

2009-10-20T01:07:00.000-07:00

baby got himself drunk ytd... hais... his fone low batt... i search for him the whole night... ended up he went drinking with cherry they all... disappointed... come baq and scold me... :( hais... what is he thinking bout? what is he trying to show me ? who does he treat me as ? hais... today xiaona drop me a msg at friendster... i told him yea... he see le... but no reply me... hais... stress la... i dontknow la... just nw went plaza to eat with ahngai, jiayi, ruizhen,alson and ahbee... eat mac again... siians everyday eat mac... lols... then went home le... da ge msg me ytd... he at tekong... and 1 thing i am very puzzled.... why is Jetson at Remand prison? what happened actually ? can someone tell me ?

all i need is ur trust

2009-10-18T21:17:00.002-07:00

posting blog now at baby's hse... that pig is sleeping now... kinda' tired now... cos today wake up veri early to PLC ( jurong) to tele-visit Danny... he become skinny le... ahma is booking another tele-visit on 27oct to see him... he is kinda depressed... alot of things that he said... but i kept telling him to write later to Wuxian but he dont want... haishx... i do what i can help le... he asked for baby's address and i gave him... he say he will write to baby wor... we wait for him letter nor... looks like i am going down to Borders to look for the magazines he want de le... find one day ba... haiishx... i shall end here le... :)

baby:
我不管别人说什么，我只要你相信我。misses lots

原来你是个大骗子！

2009-10-15T18:56:00.000-07:00

hais now then i know euu are not trustable... lets start th game since euu dont want ppl to know... lets wait and see... i will speak out all th truth... i still dotes you as my lil bro... i was blind man... man cannot be trusted so easily de.. i had nothing to say...

baby...
do what ever it takes to change for th better...
dont always dont slp la.. l8r become panda le.. i always have reasons for doing something or not meeting euu de... i changed for euu le... everything happened before euu and xiaona... trust is what i only want from euu... rmb my promise to euu aft euu and and xiaona incident? just take lots of cares ok ?

this few days..

2009-10-14T21:09:00.000-07:00

this few days stay at hse rot worx... so siians... ytd brought ahma and alson go see doc... then come back slp.. quarrel with him again... hais... i dont know what's going on between us... haiya... 烦啊！

baby,

have you wondered why are we like this ? have you tot of who is at fault first>?

everytime we quarrel , what kind of stunt you give me?

WHAT YOU TREAT ME AS ?

threaten me in whatever sense is what you are good at... i had enough le.. pls

i not your toy, your 3 yrs old kid..

i got feelings de lehx...

pls la...

new recently added photos... :P

2009-10-12T02:09:00.001-07:00

life kinda boring...

2009-10-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

boring life norx... wake up eat, eat le slp... haiish... ytd went to cafe cartel to eat with papa they all... ended up having a gd laugh... last uncle the tooth drop up wor.. me and last aunty laugh till siiaox nor... we eat ard $95.90... exp wor... o.O then go home slp wor... he went back ard 12 plus a.m wor... i aldy slp le nor... nth muchx le nor...

haiish

2009-10-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

quarrel with him... over just some lil things nor... nabei... kpkb... have he tot of my feelings? actually we both knoe that our feelings is not dere le... whyy want to cling on to it lehx ? everytime i am hurt becosx of him... both physically and emotionally.. hais... i had nth to say

sadded

2009-10-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

todayy raining wor... kinda sad cos' early in the morning quarrel with him... kpkb nor... haiish... everytime like that le.. 有时候我真的很想放弃... but cannot... baby, dont like that treat me can ? i not ur toy... we had come so far... i dontwant thiings to turn bad... seriously speaking, just tell me what euu want... i am lost le...

你是真心的吗？是真爱吗？还是对你而言我只是你的一种责任？

boring...

2009-10-07T21:12:00.001-07:00

met up ahngai at ard 11 plus... went to bangkit to eat nor.. bring yixuan... bought her biscuit.. she is damn happy nor.. cute lil girl... lols.. i help ahngai dye her hair... funny siia... then i went to far east to see gown... damn cheap... i am getting two for myself... $80 nia.. lols... then went home and orhx orhx...

49days is over..

2009-10-06T20:44:00.000-07:00

my grandma 49 days is over de... still quite upset over her leaving... anyway may she rest in peace nor.. ytd went to ahbao at ard 9 plus in the morning... taken some photos... but not out yet... then i met serene to go to Chinese garden... as wants to get her teeth washed... lols... she is taking her wedding photos the nx day... went over to jurong eat to have over dinner... go to aries and disturb ahngai.. lols... serene bought a pair of socks for chongming... aft that we went to find her dad at boonlay.. the cab fare so exp siia... $11 plus plus from jurong east to boonlay... lols... aft which yvonne come meet us... and went jp to buy serene's wedding heels.. then went crystal jade to eat agian... her dad sent me and yvonne back to bangkit and met up ahngai they all... slack at jsl awhile then go back le...

baby.. it's for euu...

2009-10-04T22:55:00.000-07:00

baby told me ytd that he still cant get over me... but i am afraid... he told me that he regretted for his wrongdoings... whatt should i do ? i am lost... can some1 from somewhere tells me whattodo...? hais... 9 months plus de relationship brings hurts, sorrows,happiness and etc... when everything turns into end, everyone will get hurt eventually right ? love cannot be forced, let nature takes its course... baby... did i get a chance to prove to euu that i have changed ? or did euu have the chance to prove to me that you have changed ? will dere be third time ? again and over again ? o.O? i dontknow....

25.12.08
will dere be a end ? or everlasting ?

this few days...

2009-10-04T09:00:00.000-07:00

this few days have been very guai staying at home wor... folding shirt for my popo... tues will be her 49days le... :( miss her sooo muchx... anyway those photos are taken by jiahao's phone... china style de n97... lols... we went to marina mandarian hotel to help kor buy some mooncakes... damn exp. nor... 8 small pics cost $51.36.... o.O but 1 thing is not very sweet nor.. ended up we two lost our way at marina square... lols... so stupid siia... then bring jiahao go mac cafe to have opera diva... then went back le.. nth muchx le...

baby,

this time gonna be real de ma? i am afraid that euu might leave me becox of other girl again le... i am hurt badly this time euu know? thats why i am afraid to give euu answer... prove me wrong ok ? misses lots...

maybe what we are now will do us good....

2009-10-02T00:09:00.000-07:00

i feel like i am drifting away from hiim le... he got his loves.. i shall nott interfere in his life anymore... he called me up when if he rmb me... i am just a toy ? a shadow for him ? ordered me ard... am i a fool ... ? am i stupid ... ? :( she loves him so muchx... maybe more then me le... there are something to do bout it right ? we cant continue to be like this... it will end up hurting more and more each other... just wanna say... baby i'm sorry... this time something have to be done... :(

houswork!!!

2009-10-01T23:42:00.000-07:00

ytd stayed at hm to do housework wor... so tiring... cleaned up the whole house with jiie... damn funny nor she... went out to bangkit to have seafood bee hoon with mummy and jiejie... :P nothing muchx le... work liao siiaox char bor like tat... tiring llehx... now then i know housework is so tiring... poor mummy... :P wash clothes,sweep floor,mop floor... lols... finished doing housework at ard 4 plus... then went to have a bath.. fall asleep wor...
met up daddy deyy @ ard 8plus to have dinner at bukit batok... so happy as i very long never join them for dinner le... such a sumptous dinner i have... but quite exp... $80 plus plus... i forget plus till how muchx le... :P go home and fold incense paper for my popo... nx wk jiu 49 days le... i miss her sooooo muchx... :( anyway i shall stop here le....

nothing gonna change my love for you...

2009-09-30T09:55:00.000-07:00

todayy morning went up to his hse... slack awhile then he went to work le... soooo tired wor... ytd slp so late, woke up so early... it was raining during the wee hours... so cold wor.. :( doing nth and listen songs... chatted awhile le then went out to plaza to have my lunch... nth much for today actually... just went to buy moon cake for Crystal 阿姑... met her up at bb mac... our oldd place... passed her the mooncake and bought her coke light, her fav's... sooo long nv see her le... still de same... she tot i M.I.A le... lols... chatted with her awhile... talking her bout b's.. so sadd and heartpain... she was angry over some trivial matters... there are something to be settled yea... face-face may be a better option for all of us... settle things in a go... she still de same... sayy things still sooo steady ... lols... :P i bought myself a bra strap todayy... quite nice nar... cheap nor... only $2... lols... todayy i miss hiim so muchx.. yet i cant do anything.. :( had some quarrel with him earlier on... he too kp le... no choice... small matters but eventually everything went back to normal... lols... what de... -_-" okides... thats all for todayy... i wanna slp le... :P

b's : euu will always in my heart, i promised what i promised so would euu ok ? misses lots... :(
thiis few dayys really is a torture man... but i will waiit for you de... :p

last day at isetan..

2009-09-29T20:45:00.003-07:00

with sweetheart

with zhigang

with papa

with kit

ytdd is the last day i work at isetan... th last time i punch my card,th last time i go there as a promoter... kinda sadd actually... time seems to flies so fast.. reach ard 11am to punch my card.. mr sahri came out to from security to speak to me.. aft tat i went up to salesfloor and saw ''cpld'' he ask why papa nv help me to farewell party wor... lol.. :P chatted with himawhile le then proceeded back to my counter to do my daily stock check... th last time i took out the lockers keys from the cashier... kinda sadd actually... spoke to 'n'bc da jiie, and ah suan... xinling was at the counter.. ken was veryy busy wor... aft finishing my stock check.. i went for my lunch... nice nice malay rice @ far east... didnt get to finish it.... :( aft lunch i went over to papa office to chat with them... all of them were in wor... we chatted and laugh... times flies as we are going for tea break... ordered myself a teh-o at canteen... lols... sit with them and chatted... aft which i went back to papa's office to online.. nth much actually... :P went to have my dinner at C.K tang... penang laksa... lols...papa didnt join us for dinner as he is not feeling quite well yea... then i went to pharmancy to buy him some medicine for him wor... spent my time at papa's office eith "hum'ster, cpld, papa and daniel... went back to sales floor to have a look.. went over to 'N'bc to chat with anna and da jiie.. help them out with some stuffs... went over to cavelli to have a chat with 小虫,disney and " 大支... i spent my time mostly at papa's office worx... chatted and laughed...went to 5th floor to help daniel buy KFC " hotbox"...went back to salesfloor at ard 8pm... ken called me up and spoke to me... at the time, i feel like crying le... although we just know each other for barely a few month but he is just like a big brother looking aft me... he gave me some advice... aft spoke to him, i cried... i cant bear to leave they all wor... but no choice... 天地下没有不散之宴席... i went over to babies dept to gave chim ping, disney kakak, oshkosh kakak a hug... back to toys' dept to give anna, xinling, honey, joan a hug.. so sadd... went to collect my bag at security.. and went down to wait for them... saw leroy and sam.. chatted with them awhile then go off le... hao le... that;s all...

hey's guys euu are missed !!!

(ken,eng,xinling,fiona,anna, an, leroy, sam, da jie, ah suan, xiaowen, disney,xiaocong,wangli,zhigang, cozy kit,xiaolong, isabelle,agnes,felicia,gan-ma,disney kakak,oshkosh kakak, emelyn,queenie,ah gong,chen kai,tong yang,pleo kit, amway joseph,neckermen ah sam, idzuan, ah ling,papa,daniel," hum"" ster, mr shari, roy, azaly,malek,razali,roslan,mr adnad, handsome, operater florence, penny yap, mala, poi chin and all the households aunties... and etc... )
sorry if i miss out ur name... for those who know me... be it is xbox promoter, yuki, weiping,bloompac or xiaomei...

and two last person i want to thanks is my supervisor of bloompac intl. uncle jeff and aunty annie..

TAKE CARE GUYS I GONNA MISS EUU ALL DE..

b's

2009-09-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

hiyee guys... i just had a new blog... :)

just wanna say something bout myy loves... :)
our storyy start at 25.12.08... :)
it has been a long way since we are back tgt...
so much obstacles and so much quarrel... :(
but i just gonna sayy i love my babyy so much... ;)
no matter what i will waitt for him... :)
sorry for the hurts i hadd done... :(
i will change for euu de babyy... :)

hao le nar...
i going to slp le... nights nights... :)

new blog !!!

2009-09-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

heys guys... this is my new blog... do rmb to link me worx...
www.loves-scarificationist.blogspot.com